Vaca Here We Come!!!

We leave in the morning for vacation!!!! It’s about time, too! We are sooo ready to go! There is one problem though…..MM has a birthday coming in a couple weeks and he’s getting upset about it already.

He keeps telling me that he’s “NOT going to turn 5 and I mean it!” as he stomps his feet and runs off to his room or wherever. You see, he’s so afraid, no, actually he’s terrified of starting school that he doesn’t want to turn 5. Our children live with so many fears.  So many it is hard to keep count.

I won’t be writing much tonight since I’ve much to do even at this late hour. I am sorry about that…..but it is what it is.

I wouldn’t let MM up from the table until everyone was finished because dinner time is family time….even if he’s sulking….lol.

MM kept “pushing” his plate away. I insisted he keep his plate in front of him since he kept calling it “nasty!”  AND I honestly only gave him a tad more than a TBS full.

This vacation is going to prove quite interesting I’m sure of it. IT’s going to be very interesting to say the least and I’m sure all the campers around us are going to be calling 911 because of all the screaming that will be happening.

 

Blessings to you and your children…..

Mama249

Not to Be “Corny”……

Our food battles continue……I’m tellin’ ya….my son is persistent! Tonight I made one of his favorites:

Yep…..good ‘ole Hamburger Helper. I gotta continue to make something that he’ll eat so that he does eat dinner sometimes, ya know.  But…yep….there’s a but in this story…..I also had corn on the side (frozen….it tastes SO much better than canned). He saw his plate…..1 TBS of each on it…..and he immediately threw his head back and started in on the whining. I calmly stated to him that he can have more of the Hamburger Helper when he eats all that is on his plate. He whined a couple more minutes saying that he’s “scared to try it.” I told MM that I was there with him, what could I do to help?

Most likely, if he were older and thought of it…he’d of said, “Mommy, you can help me by taking this corn off my plate!” LOL.

After a few minutes of the whining….he said, “Oh, all right,” in the tone you can imagine when a child says this very thing. He asked if I’d feed it to him because he was scared. Certainly will dear one! If I can get him to start eating vegetables, sure, heck yeah….I’ll feed it to him!

He tasted the corn…..with some spray butter on it…..and he actually said he liked it. But then the next bite he said he didn’t. He kept asking me to put spray butter on the corn…..I put it on once and it would’ve been swimming in spray butter if I’d of put on how much he requested!!!!

He ATE THE WHOLE TBS of corn!!!!! I am so proud of him and told him so. He ran into our bedroom, where dh was sleeping (midnights tonight) after hearing him move around in there. MM was SO excited to tell daddy that he actually ate his corn!!!!! Daddy’s eyes were wide with delight.

I see a light now…..a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s still off far in the distance as I know we’ve got a huge battle on our hands. It’s our own faults…we let it go on too long. The fact that I’d make MM something different every single meal was outrageous. I have realized my fault in this and am taking charge, making a different plan, and meeting it head-on.

I spoke with a very dear friend of mine about this very thing earlier today. She stated that I need to stop giving him milk at meals because he’s “filling up on milk” thus not hungry enough to eat what is on his plate. She also stated that I should only be giving him water between meals…..so he’s nourished but yet will not be filling up on “good ‘ole Gatorade,” and other sugary stuff. No Snacks at all for at least a month. MM gets 2 snacks a day…….no more for now. He will be able to “earn” his milk & Gatorade back…..when he eats what is on his plate……but not for every meal otherwise he’ll expect it.

This path is a tough one…..but again…..I see the light!!!

 

Blessings to you and your children….

Mama249

 

My Facelift!!

I thought I’ve give the blog a “facelift”!!! I adore anything pink…..and I mean anything. My dh thinks I own too much pink in my wardrobe….lol. AND when I “accidentially” wear pink on top AND bottom…..he calls me a “Pink Nightmare”!! He’s gonna love this facelift of mine….he’s going to say….”figures it’d be pink!” Speaking of which….time to change purses to my Guess one with the pink in it…LOL!! It is Spring around the corner ya know!!

Speaking of “Spring around the corner,” it is snowing and I mean snowing hard out as I type these words. We had tornado warnings 2 days this past week….TWO DAYS of them…..that is insane. One of the days was really awful. Myself and MM went to my MIL’s house and camped out in her cellar for the duration of the storm. Funny thing is….they have a potato bin (farmers in the family) and there is dirt on the top of it where the potatoes are first laid……lil Munchkin Man brought his magnet Thomas the Train down with him to Grandma’s and was in HEAVEN when he discovered the dirt! It was so stinkin’ funny that when the storm had passed and it was time to go home…..MM didn’t want to leave…you guessed it…..because he wanted to continue playing in the dirt!!! LOL…boys!!!!

The Food Battle continues……on and on and on. He’s is a presistent lil bugger. One of these days, he’ll try something new. Tonight we had Chicken ‘n Dumpling’s and he wouldn’t even try it. He shoved his plate away saying “It Stinks!!” Oh well…..BUT we have a rule that Dinner time is family time…..all of us stay at the table until the last person finishes their dinner. THEN and only then can anyone be excused. He despises this…..saying that if he’s not eating, he shouldn’t have to sit there. Guess again sweetie pie!

Daddy worked a bunch of hours over the past few days so it was just MM and myself at bedtime tonight. We read about 4-5 stories on the iPad/Kindle app. I love that I can view all my Kindle purchases on the iPad…..they’re in color! Woo Hoo!!! I’ve been reading all MM’s children’s books to him in black and white…..kinda reminds me of my childhood where we only had a black & white Television. I had to “guess” what color clothes ppl had on…..that was kinda fun actually….using my immagination. BUT once we got color…..holy cow…..the whole TV WORLD opened up, didn’t it!?

I kinda see MM like that…..when he first came home, he was in black & white…..he hardly smiled. He had a blank face..no emotion on it at all in a lot of the pictures I took. I imagined him in “color”…..full of laughter and vivid!!! Yes…that is it…VIVID.

Then as he’s grown and we’ve grown through this process…..I see him more in color now. He’s more VIVID…..more willing to let us in. He has a wonderful smile…..and so many of the pictures I take….have so much personality in them!!!!! By no means am I saying that we don’t have a ways to go yet….man o man do we ever!!! But we’re getting there…..step by baby step.

And just what is our “BIG DREAM?” Total healing for MM. For MM to be able to trust, to not be so incredibly fearful, to be able to let go and just love without worry, to dream…..those incredible dreams kiddos have.

My life….my purpose is for him…..for MM. I know that I must take care of myself so that I can take care of MM….yes. But I mean….that I stay up late at nights…searching for answers…..answers that will be the ONE…you know….the one that will help. The one that will be an “Aha!” I will try that and see if it works…and it does!! That is my goal. Each and every single day….every breath I take….is for my family whom I adore. I wouldn’t trade this life for any other…..God entrusted us with MM….He trusted we would do what is best by him…..and take care of him…..and find him the best counselor…..the best of everything. We try, and try and try. We also fall sometimes…..that is ok…..we pick ourselves up, forgive and carry on.

My Dream….is his dream……to be able to dream peacefully. To live peacefully. To love peacefully.

 

Blessings to you and your children…..

Mama249